Ok... So I went on my first roadtrip home ALONE last Wednesday... Good, but interesting... So let me rewind first...
Well I have been babysitting my cousins all of last week, and we went to my aunt's house to swim... We were in the pool for maybe a whole hour because it was like we were swimming in the freezer... Ugh.. But anyways, out of nowhere this HUGE black and yellow butterfly swam over the pool... All three of us stopped and just stared at it... Well we then got out of the pool and went over to my other aunts house to help put up a fence (about 5 miles down the road) and while we were putting up the fence, again this huge yellow and black butterfly was hovering overhead... I had to just stop and stare.... I have not seen any butterflies around here ever, and I saw 2 butterflies that looked exactly the same...
So anyways, moving on, the significance of the butterfly? Well, as some of you may know my cousin Brittany Currier died during my sophomore year in highschool... She was my best friend. But back to the butterfly... When they did the drinking and driving seminar thing at the high school she was in it.. .And they had to write a letter to friends and family as if they had died... Well at the end of her letter she wrote, "everytime you see a butterfly, think of me, know I am there, listen closely to the beating of the wings, hear my voice in the wind as I am carried away." So every single time I see a butterfly I think of her... So I was already thinking of her, and I packed up to drive home at about 5...
Well on the way home Britt and Dars cross are on the side of the road... And the entire drive there I was anticipating those crosses... I didn't know how I would react, especially being alone. Anyways, so mile marker 110... I came to their crosses and all of a sudden the song switches to Who You'd Be Today by Brad Paisley.... I just started bawling... And I look over at the crosses and there were 2 black and yellow butterflies hovering over the crosses... I just could not believe it... (idk what's up with the prius advertisement... "i'm gay" haha if you've seen jeff dunham)
I have been missing her alot lately... And I guess I needed those butterflies to realize that she is never very far... It has been so long ago since this happened... But I still remember exactly when I found out... I hit my back against the counter and just slid to the floor... She is always in my thoughts... But I am very thankful for those little butterfly reminders... :)
Now that I got you all down... Let me bring you up... Well continuing my drive home... I was in NAPI and I was pretty upset because Kenny had not called me, and he was like really worried about me driving home, but I had not heard from him... So I was upset... Well anyways I had dropped my Sprite on the floor and picked it up to take a drink... Well I opened it and it exploded EVERYWHERE all over me... I just had to smile and laugh... I knew that was Britt telling me to stop being stupid, I knew Kenny was trying to call me something else was wrong... So here I am sitting with Sprite all over and just alone in my car laughing out loud... Loser I know... But I guess I think we just need to pay attention to all the little things... The people we lose never really leave us... Oh and about the calls, Kenny tried calling 9 times... My phone is not the greatest and never got them...
So all in all I made it home safely... A few bumps and butterflies later... But I made it :)
